Maybe it's because my house feels like a complete mess (again)...
Maybe it's because two of my kids weren't being nice to each other...
Maybe it's because all I felt like doing was holding/taking a nap with the baby...
Maybe it's because the electric bill was over $600 (and I'm still hot!)...
Maybe it's because there is still so much to fix, replace, and buy for our "new" home and it's all so expensive...
Maybe it's because I don't get enough sleep...
Maybe it's because I'm trying to "ween" myself off of sugar...
Maybe it's because making new friends isn't always easy...
Maybe it's because my hormones are still crazy...
Maybe it's because I have a ton of personal goals that aren't being met...
Maybe it's because the two-yr-old didn't nap and is into EVERYTHING
(he "decorated" the banister with the entire contents of my brand new floss, ripped into a box of cereal, pulled out all of the books out of the bookshelf when he got upset--oh wait, that was the 4-yr-old, etc.)...
Maybe it's because I feel alone a lot even though I am surrounded by people...
Maybe it's because I miss my friends...
Maybe it's because I miss my mom...
For whatever reason, I had a good sob today (well multiple sobs, it was just one of those days). It made me wonder, does a woman really
need a reason for a good cry? As I waited for Burke's bus this afternoon (and yes, I drive to the bus stop; it was over 110 today), I turned on the radio which is rare, and my favorite Coldplay song happened to be on. I turned up the radio as loud as I could allow myself and tried not to worry about what the neighboring parents were thinking of the hysterical, ugly-crying, half-laughing woman in the "Utah" plated minivan. And for the next three minutes my world seemed wonderful again. My tried and true combo (tears and a little music) was just the right therapy.